Etheric Lap Banding...

Hey, guess what... it really works!

I had a small conversation with the Angels - didn't get to do a big meditation - just a quick chat and asked then to fit a lap-band and shrink my stomach and then to help me recognise as soon as I have had enough.

I cooked my porridge for breakky yesterday morning - normal amount - and ate one third of it! The last two mouthfuls I realised I was eating just because it was there and tasted good so I stopped and put it in the fridge for today & tomorrow! For a moment I wondered if it would see me through until lunchtime then I figured it would and didn't think about it again.

By lunch time I was hungry but not starving - I just knew it was time for lunch.

I had a home made corned beef and salad roll and I was full before the end - I did keep eating becasue it was SOOOOO yummy - I will need to watch myself on that - that is where my determination will come into effect... But having pushed past the feeling of having enough I was really quite uncomfortable - far more than I would have expected.

I munched on a few minties in the afternoon - I got stressed - blerky phone calls from banks - but it wasn't chocolate! Will come up with a 'stressed plan' that does not involve eating.

For dinner I cooked a beautiful chilli with mashed potato - comfort food - it did have fresh asparagus on the top! :o) I ate the asparagus first - (I LOOOOOVE FRESH ASPARAGUS!) and actually felt that i had eaten enough !?! I was amazed but I didn't stop... a few mouthfulls of chilli and mash turned into the whole plate full and I am still feeling uncomfortable and full this morning.

Soooo, the etheric help from the Angels really works! I already knew that but I had never thought to ask them to actually shrink my stomach before. I am recognising when I have had enough really quickly and even not wanting to serve myself as much.

I am realistic and know that I will eat to excess at times - bingeing has been such a part of my life for so long - yet I am ready to surrender it this year and I am no longer making it wrong - it is just a part of who I am and I love it!

Beloved and I have decided to go out and buy a whole new dinner set - we will probably go to a catering supply store and buy ourselves some square plates - we need to do something really different - I know this will help me to begin to serve less - we bought a new baby wok the other day which is certainly helping me to cook less.

So, this morning I feel like an uncomfrotable bloated blerk BUT I am feeling positive and now I recognise what will happen when I push it past full and I Don't Like It!

It is amazing you know - I have never been more comfortable with my body shape and size than I am now - and now I am beginning to change it. The Angels always told me I had to love myself EXACTLY as I was, accept myself EXACTLY as I was - it took a while for me to realise that that meant physically as well! I can be a bit slow sometimes.... hehehehe

Being as big as I am has almost served it's purpose - it's last gift to me is for me to discover a whole new level of commitment, love, courage and strength as I do whatever it takes to allow my body to be it's perfect size.

I know I will never be 'skinny' and I don't want to be - I want to be healthy - 85 Kilo's - here I come!

Have a wonderful Day and love yourself today exactly as you are - let go of the expectations and pressures and realise that you - right now - is exactly who you are meant to be in all aspects and YOU ARE GORGEOUS!

Karen