From Maiden to Mother...

In a few years I will be forty... 40... I don't quite know how that happened. Many of my friends are much closer than me to 40 - some sneaking up on it and some sneaking away from it... :O) ... I have always been the baby... youngest of 5, youngest at school, youngest at Uni, youngest amounst friends ('cept for darling Deb - Love Ya!) by far younger than Beloved - 20 years younger!!!! (and I would not ever ever change one second of it!)

I feel like... it is strange and the only way I can describe it is that I am at last transitioning from Maiden to Mother, eventhough I have birthed no children of my own - I am Mother and Advisor to many!

I no longer feel like a little girl any more... I no longer feel small and unimportant... I have things to share and they are valuable and precious and come from a lifetime of experiences - 37 & 1/2 years worth so far...

I am a woman, no longer a child who can hide behind being a child and not knowing any better.

I am a woman, no longer a child who believes everyone else knows better than her.

I am a woman, no longer a child who does or does not do things because she knows she can get away with it.

I am a woman, no longer a child who waits for the approval or dissaproval of her parents and siblings and friends.

I am a woman, who knows and shares and loves with her whole heart, because she can!

It feels good.

It feels new!

It feels strong in a deeply calming way.

I feel like at last I have a right to be here and to share with others what I know.

My role now is to share and teach and stand strong in the knowledge of who I am & what I teach.

I teach simply by being one hundred percent authentically me.

No more hiding... I don't need to.

No more worrying about getting it right... I don't need to.

No more feeling less than... I don't need to.

No more hiding all of these feelings... I don't need to.

I do believe I would like to celebrate with a ceremony... will ask the Goddess to bring me one and then will gather as many of my new found and old found sisters to celebrate with me.

It is time.

I am here

and I weep with Joy and relief as I feel the arms of the Mother wrap around me and welcome me home.

Blessed Be xxxxx